My Breakdown - Part 6 "The Resolution"

'The Resolution" **

I have learned so much this past year. I learned a great deal that day I fell under the weight of grief without expecting to.

I have learned how using words to process my grief is my process.
I have learned how good it feels to share them with you - and hear yours.
I have leaned that a journey is exactly that, a series of moments with no ETA or goal location.

I knew all this, once upon a moon. I forgot. I'm not sure when or where, but I am so very grateful to have regained perspective.

Now - I know a list of entirely different, hopeful things.

I know I have found a book format that feels good, feeds my soul - and in turn, has the ability to feed others. It will be published. I don't know when but it matters very little to me.

I know my husband has found his center, for when confronted with my emotional breakdown, the likes of which he hasn't seen in a VERY long time, he acted quickly, with compassion. He possessed an innate knowledge for what I needed in that moment, even when I didn't.

I know it is my responsibility to put myself first: body, mind, and soul. It feels good to do it.

I also know, that this - my blog - has become like my second home. I love it here because you welcome all emotion without judgement. You support and confirm this process, and I yours. It is a relationship founded on blind faith that we have something to offer each other. It is a connection of the rarest kind.

Hi! I'm Cara. I have three kids - two sit at the dinner table.

I know I am ok.

** This is the final part of my Meltdown series. If you are just coming in, you may find it helpful to read: PART 1, PART 2, PART 3, PART 4, AND PART 5. They are on the top bar in order.