'The Resolution" **
I have learned so much this past year. I learned a great deal that day I fell under the weight of grief without expecting to.
I have learned how using words to process my grief is my process.
I have learned how good it feels to share them with you - and hear yours.
I have leaned that a journey is exactly that, a series of moments with no ETA or goal location.
I knew all this, once upon a moon. I forgot. I'm not sure when or where, but I am so very grateful to have regained perspective.
Now - I know a list of entirely different, hopeful things.
I know I have found a book format that feels good, feeds my soul - and in turn, has the ability to feed others. It will be published. I don't know when but it matters very little to me.
I know my husband has found his center, for when confronted with my emotional breakdown, the likes of which he hasn't seen in a VERY long time, he acted quickly, with compassion. He possessed an innate knowledge for what I needed in that moment, even when I didn't.
I know it is my responsibility to put myself first: body, mind, and soul. It feels good to do it.
I also know, that this - my blog - has become like my second home. I love it here because you welcome all emotion without judgement. You support and confirm this process, and I yours. It is a relationship founded on blind faith that we have something to offer each other. It is a connection of the rarest kind.
Hi! I'm Cara. I have three kids - two sit at the dinner table.
I know I am ok.
** This is the final part of my Meltdown series. If you are just coming in, you may find it helpful to read: PART 1, PART 2, PART 3, PART 4, AND PART 5. They are on the top bar in order.
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