Another month is gone. Another 30 days have passed in our lives without our children who flew too soon. To them, it is effortless to exist in the ethers of our tangible lives, to appear in a red leaf, or a rainbow. For us, seeing them in the world is a journey of its own.
We hold tight to their belongings like a toddler with a non-swayable gift of object permanence: Pictures, locks of hair, stuffed bunnies bought early in the pregnancy, the first book on the bookshelf, the date circled in red on the calendar, the figurine sent by a loved one, the "anniversaries" of conception, death, and delivery, the memoralizing jewlery around our wrists and necks, and forever we hold the memories of our pregnancy, 6 weeks or 36, they will always be ours.
I have started a Angel Wall in my office. I want to see the faces, names, and /or due dates of all our angels. I want to be surrounded by their being as I sit and work everyday. I want to smile broadly oozing pride when a guest enters my home and inquires, "What is that on your wall?". I will answer, "Angels of all ages".
If you would like your angel on the wall please email me at carajer@tds.net. Include any or all of these: a picture of your baby, his or her name, and the date they flew.
I will treat them with respect. I will honor them and their parents as I look over each and every one before starting work. I shudder think how quickly the day will come when I will not be able to see even a slice of the light blue paint on my walls.
Here's to each and every one of you, your journey of grief and your sweet babies.
The print under our angels is my U.T.E.R.U.S purchase through Kate's Etsy shop. It is perfect! The shimmering light on the bridge represents all our chrildren.
A Common Soul,
Cara
UPDATE: OUR WALL AFTER JUST 2 DAYS. WE ARE GROWING - IN MEMORIES.
19 comments:
What a beautiful tribute.
BTW, I tagged you on my blog.
That is so beautiful. Thank you so much!
I am so sorry for your loss. I can't imagine what life was like for you 8 years ago. You are so sweet to create that Angel Wall!
I think this is a beautiful idea, Cara. So beautiful.
Cara, thank you thank you thank you.
I just found your blog today, and it helped release the tears that have been locked behind the wall of the "must get through the day without crying" life I live.
Would you mind writing "Baby J. - 9/2008" on a post it for your wall? It would mean so much to me.
Thank you again!
(ICLW)
How fantastic. Thank-you so much for doing this. For giving a place where all of these little souls can be honored and remembered.
"Baby B" - March, 2008"
Dearest Cara, I would be thankful if you post on your Angel Wall
"Baby K - October 1991"
Forever in my heart
I don't have anything to add- thank God- but I think the idea is lovely!
thank you for including my hope xo
Aww that's so sweet and sad. (ICLW)
How wonderful. So sorry for your loss and all the other angel babys' parents' losses. My heart hurts for you.
(ICLW)
Beautiful tribute.
ICLW
The pictures of your angel wall gave me goose bumps...what a beautiful tribute. Would you add my angels: Baby Faith, July 2002 and Baby M, May 2008?
I cry for all of our losses. Thank you for the reminder that it's ok to cry.
ICLW
Oh Cara, this is simply beautiful. I admire you for all you do.
Such a beautiful wall! I will email you with the names of my lost children....
Oh wow...this brought tears to my eyes. It's so beautiful! Thank you, again, for honoring the lives of my girls in such a beautiful way.
Thank you.
Happy ICLW! What an absolutely fantastic idea to have an angel wall.
Can you please post
Charlotte Rose
1st September 2004
Have you seen the blog 'To write their names in the sands' ...
I am sorry you have said goodbye to your precious daughter too soon ...there is a beautiful blog called to Write their names in the sand ...if you want to check my blog.
They write the angel babies' names in the sand at the beach and take photos on sunset - very awesome and a free.Then post them on the blog. Just in case you are interested.
Here from IComLeavWe... (adoption,pregnancy loss, IVF twins)
My Little Drummer Boys
Thank you for including Aaron. He was only with us for a short time, so I am honored that he is a permanent part of your wall. Thank you.
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