Things making this easy:
- My internet connection is crankily slow, occasionally refusing to work - period.
- The immense pleasure I get from hearing my kids say, "You were really fun today mommy."
- The satisfaction of seeing my house clean and organized at the end of a day when we were actually here!
Things making this hard:
- I still think, talk and write-posts-in-my-head like a full time blogger
- My internet connection's suckiness when I just want to check one little thing!
- The guilt I cannot seem to shake about being so far behind with all your posts.
- I MISS writing. I miss having the time to just open the computer and let the words fall out.
- I don't like having to 'schedule' my creative time. It just doesn't work like that!
- Things are just not getting done...like updating the Angel Wall, or blasting out Share media news. They will...I promise!
Ok, clearly I have a bit more work to do in my 12-step program to on-line/real life balance. But since the real life piece has been quite blissfull, I guess I chalk this first week up as a success.
Tomorrow I am headed to a funeral for a little boy who died 8 months gestation. His parents and sister are devestated, obviously. I am attending as a fellow grieving mother and with to other board members of Share Southern Vermont. We hope to show that we care from the very beginning, a silent support system of strangers...if you will.
I find it timely that I have still yet to open my journal. I feel that if I had, attending this funeral might have been impossible. As it is, I type this at 9:30 pm - 12 hours before the service - and remain as calm as can be.
Think good, strong, positive thoughts that I can both represent Share in a professional way while touching their hearts with understanding.
Oh -- and Issue Six of Exhale is out!! I can't believe we have been at this for eight months now! Be sure to click over and read all the goodies in this issue (including a MALE columnist and a piece all about my sweet hubby!)
Don't be surprised if tomorrow night brings me back to the keys, a couple of glasses of vino later to lay the funeral experience out for you!